I’m sorry I’m just getting around to this one now. Last week was ridiculously hectic.

Ten facts about me:

1. I think of little snippets in my head that could potentially be turned into stories. Just parts of conversations or maybe poetic ways of describing something that I think would make a really nice excerpt in a story. But I don’t actually have the time or guts to write it out. 
2. I’m 4’10” and I love it. Yes, being short definitely has it’s disadvantages, like feeling claustrophobic in the crowded school hallways, or not being able to see over shelves, but I’ve learned to appreciate my height. I’m fun-sized and proud of it :3
3. I’m usually really good at expressing to others how I feel (when I want to). I can articulate how I’m feeling pretty well. I don’t leave any room for doubt about how I feel, because I’m pretty straight forward most of the time. I articulate best when I’m angry. Somehow all the words just fall into the right place and I can get my point across pretty well. Except when I’m sad. That’s a different story.
4. As good as I am at articulating how I feel, I’m even better at lying about my feelings. I can be really upbeat, cheerful, and peppy. I laugh a lot. But underneath that are a lot of emotions that most people will never see.
5. I’ve recently gotten into the habit of searching “suicide” tags on tumblr. Not because I’m considering it for myself, but because I like to leave anonymous messages of encouragement for the people who are considering suicide. I realize they must be in a pretty dark place and even though I’ve never met them, I like to let them know someone cares. And hopefully somewhere down the line a few lives are saved.
6. I’m a weak person when it comes to breaking bad habits. I just can’t seem to get out of things. I’ve carried some of my worst habits through all of highschool. Which is why I can’t even go near anything like drugs or smoking. I’m too scared I won’t be able to maintain self-control, so I figure it’s safer to just keep my distance.
7. I love my extended family. They’re crazy, and embarrassing, and hilarious. They’re the kind of family you’d warn your future significant other about, because they’re so wacky. But that’s what I love about them. 
8. I love reading. It’s a way of transporting myself to another world, a world outside of my own thoughts and worries. I’ll read books over and over again, even though I already know the ending, because I love reliving the moments in the story.
9. I have really good memory. There are a lot of things I hold onto in my memory. Whether it’s subconsciously or not. Dates, times, anything numeric especially. Specific things that people say. Specific actions. I remember all that stuff. Sometimes it benefits me, other times it just hurts me to remember.
10. I am selfish. Especially now. I just really want this one thing and I will stop at nothing to have it. Even if it’s to the detriment of myself (and maybe some other people). Not because I don’t care about others, but because right now this is what I need. A solution.